Hmmm....what's up with this?

He is risen!





All I can say today because I am holding back and hanging in there. I am thankful that my doctor took a second look at my throat Monday and gave me an antibiotic. It has helped immensely! I just dragged out our Easter decorations last night and tonight I am busy catching up on housework so I can get this place to look more "springy" and renewed. I am thankful for the discontent I had yesterday afternoon because it got me back into prayer time and scripture reading. So... since I was bottled up in selfish pity for not being ready for this early Easter, I decided to take the time to make a post and a declaration to the One who helped me the most last night! As for what I am holding back...all I have to give is my open prayer to God.

Father

First of all forgive me of being judgemental
and assuming when I hear of the discontent of others.
With every word of sorrow I hear,
may the Holy Spirit prompt me to repeat
the name of our beautiful Savior Jesus
over their trials.
Search me, give me the strength to
reach out more,
love more
and share more the wondrous life
you have given me.

Where do I put it all!

Last summer I said this is it! I am going to get all this "stuff' put in its' proper place. Well that was easier said than done. What we did do was unload. I decided to not give cares to what the neighbors or passersby thought and have a "free" yard sale. They are so easy! Huge signs that say "FREE STUFF", place them in your front lawn and go about your regular day! Our old treated lumber steps from our front porch went to a family effort rebuilding an old hunting camp, my used vacuum went to a college kid getting his first apartment. We had discarded toys, stuffed animals, a ramp that came with our garden shed that we were unable to use, a lawn mower in need of tinkering and other miscellaneous "stuff". Little by little, this and that left. I have to say that I lack the necessary skills to really be organized, but thankfully by this weekend I am sure I'll learn more from the wonderful posts on http://lysaterkeurst.blogspot.com/.
Saw our first crocus popping up yesterday, spring can not be to far away! As for spring cleaning...got to step that up before my oldest returns home from college!!! MORE STUFF!!! :)

For once

For once, at least not today, I didn't ask God why. I had whys to confront him with today.
Even more after I got home from work and read blogs. Right now I'm in a content mood even after reading the sorrows others suffer. Dinner is simmering, along with my mind. A strange conversation had just stirred from my 14 year old, and it gave revelation to my own trials. She yelled to me in the kitchen, "Mom, I have dance tonight". "I know". "No you don't", she answered. "Juli, I was just thinking about having to drive you there" "Pretend you don't know", she quickly said. "Okay, I didn't know you had dance". "See, I saved you"
Whoa...where did that come from! What was God telling me about my own past and the pain that was once in my heart. In this twist of a blog the one thing that often kept me alive when thoughts of death came years ago, was the pain I felt when my mother died while I was in my teens. That pain kept me alive to live for my own two daughters. That's my little bit for today.

Baby Steps

Took some baby steps these past few days

and not quite sure what will become of

them. What I do know is... they were Spirit led

and I am happy to say that your

never too old or tired to build a snowman!

Third time is the charm!

Arghhh!!!! I have deleted two posts already because I can't leave somethings alone. Anyways, I locked my keys in my car while it was running to sweep off snow today after work. I felt stupid. Then I felt terribly grateful then I felt guilt. All of this in a two hour period. Now I am up late, my youngest daughter and I have the house to ourselves because hubby is in Ohio helping restore electrical service to those without power. My prayers are with all tonight who are enduring this blast of winter. I don't know exactly what else to say...I guess when I lay my head down tonight I'll save my best for last to the One who knows me best.


2:00 PM

Well I slept in alittle...laundry, tidying up and just a touch of snow shoveling. Waiting on the weather before I tackle it full time. Since I said in opening I would come here bit by bit so I will share, bit by bit. I was once classified manic/depressive 13 years ago. For the past 6 years I have been free of medication. My girls, 14 & 21, are awesome! My husband is a good man! Good as in Godly good, as in good and faithful servent. I can't imagine anyone else who would of survived the "me" I was years ago. This past year I have really opened my mind to the word "good' . I'm happy to say I am in good terms with life and see possibilities in the future I never felt before. First book I can say helped me on my road to wellness years ago...Attitudes of Gratitude.
Simple little book that started me thinking on good things.
Going to get back to Lysa TerKeurst blog sometime this weekend, check out the software I borrowed eons ago to organize recipes, and eventually shovel.