Latest Addiction

Me and my girls have a new addiction to reality TV...Jon and Kate Plus Eight. We just can't seem to walk away from that show. First of all it never seems to stop amazing me the size of her belly in the opening! I feel the discomfort she must have been in. Then there is the fact that throughout this show we talk! We marvel at the marriage these two blessed people have. Kate is awesome, so demanding and controlling yet in the mystery of how she was created I see that her ways work. Jon just cracks us up. He can get away with sarcasm so easily and innocently. Now I have to admit I don't have the sextuplets names memorized by sight like my girls do but each time I watch, it is so clear how each is wonderfully made and unique.

Now this show is getting much talk around various circles I run into and it is so easy to criticize the parents methods and methodology but the fact that in the opening they can define each child's unique persona and habits shows something you don't see. Somewhere there are children whose parents can't. Somewhere there are children who don't have a home cooked meal. No one plays hide and seek with them.

Now when my girls and I watch this show, we don't get that deep. We don't criticize, we just watch in wonderment. Kate's constant controlling shows me what can be done, that meltdowns are a fact of life and nothing to be ashamed of.

So as I sit here...using this blog to jump start my day...I want to just say thanks to God that 13 years ago I had a husband, who has a hint of Jon in him, to cover my butt when I was soaked in the darkness of clinical depression. The best thing that ever happened to me was being forced to say I was mentally ill with my first therapist. Because of that first step I took a journey to find the greatest things in my life. To grasp each aspect of their personalities, to criticize less, to accept more, to humble myself, and learn how to be grateful for each new day.

Now I need to get my butt moving because yesterday I didn't do poop! I spent the day just hanging with my girls. They're asleep still, no school and a sink full of dishes. Definitely not the thing that I would want the whole world to see. The things I want the whole world to see are the unseen!

Faith, hope and love of our almighty God, even through tears He is there.