I had to walk away from my three best friends in the world last night. My daughters and hubby, every night around ten I feel sleepy, but they egg me on to stay up. Last night I went to bed! Thankful I did...feeling much better about today for it.
Gonna make us some cookies! Snickerdoodles today and after I clean the fridge gonna pop in some of Grandma's sugar cookie dough to whip up a batch tomorrow. My little one, now 5'9", and second tallest in our foursome is wanting to send a batch to summer school Thursday plus with our vacation less than two weeks away, I can have homemade cookies to have on hand in our cabin in the mountains.
Tennessee...we haven't had a week long vacation in 6 years! I took a giant leap of faith for us by securing a cabin in the mountains overlooking Pigeon Forge. Yesterday the last papers were faxed and it is a done deal. Yet there is this voice in me, who wants to yell out to others that I love God, He will provide, we aren't being selfish, we deserve this time away, we deserve a heavenly view of life in a place we have never been before, and yes we know the price of gas! Obviously, there is resentment because our decision to take this vacation hasn't been openly praised by some. I'm still a mountain builder from molehill person instead of tearing down those mountains of needing approval and having a stupid, wandering and suspicious mind. I really think that last part was of His doing!
Forgive me Father!
But I'm busting inside with anticipation!!!!Went on trip advisor today to check out dining options!
So the heart of this post is the day to day struggle and reshaping God is doing with the love, faith, dreams, and hope I have in Him compared to what I am actually expressing to others I speak directly too. God has done some incredibly amazing events in my life! But unfortunately I have weaknesses, I take the outer shell of my middle class existence and that is what I give.
My open prayer today to you Father is:
Break free my mouth to express the love and the lessons you have taught me,
Passion should be flowing,
Expressing the wonderful things you have done for us to others.
Forgive me, teach me to better a better spokesperson for You.
I count each trial, each day a blessing but no one knows...
until now!
Make me more "Dangerous" in conveying your love to others!
(I love that song!!!!!...got it downloaded for free legally by Decemberadio, it allows the old me mix with the "new" me)
So with that done...get to work girl!
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