A New Season

Actually did something yesterday that I had never done before.
I went to church alone.
One family member went to the early service, others needed rest.
I always had anxiety over this, leftover from days gone by.

When we went to the amusement park on Thursday I had seen our parish priest, waiting in line behind us with his family (Episcopalian). After seeing him I told myself...I will haul my bum to church Sunday no matter what.

When it became clear Sunday morning I would have to attend church alone...I went.

Little butterflies were in me.

I am still growing.

Someone told my mother-in-law yesterday they thought the troubles I had in the past revolved around cancer. I guess we kept our mouths so closed, feeling ashamed of the stigma of mental illness that the first thing people thought of was cancer since it is so prevalent in my family history. I'm completely guessing at this.

Now to Fall,
A new school year,
New opportunities to reach out to others.
Prayers for an old high school buddy struggling with cancer.
Needing strength and healing from Heaven above for her, for others around me, for myself too,
to understand and accept this new season in life, like the autumn leaves here, ever changing.

I see God calling me to do more things in fear than in comfort.


I apologize if any previous entries here have led anyone to believe I was fearless.
Thankfully, expressing myself openly has enabled me to be more trusting.

Thank you Father,
for each step I take.
Help me to express this gratitude and your incredible love for all of us along the way.