Remembering

It is raining.
A tad dreary for a summer day and I have three huge piles of clothes to transfer upstairs, yet my little one is still asleep. This is the first day she has slept in since returning from camp. She has many bruises and scrapes on her now 5'11" frame.
I am letting her sleep. Oh....to be a teenager and not have guilt from sleeping late. I'm happy to oblige this teenage luxury.

Hubby is visiting his parents next door, caught in this rain shower.
I found out this morning I am truly jealous of his body pillow. I awoke early around 7 AM and just watched him sleep. But to my surprise, I watched as he rolled over and physically put a bear hug on his pillow. Granted that pillow has helped him tremendously get a better nights sleep and snore less, but when I told him what I saw he laughed and said I was jealous. Speechless...I eventually agreed.

Hey, she is up!

Anyways...I must have subscribed to Beliefnet.com sometime back. Today in my inbox was "10 Inspiring Quotes for a Depressed Heart"

I usually don't opt in on much from that website, some content just doesn't agree with the me that is me today. But today, I enjoyed reading those quotes. Years back quotes like these made me even more depressed. I was so settled into a pattern of defeated thinking that it angered me to hear uplifting messages. Yet over the these past few years I see that messages of hope said to me years ago by family, mental health professionals, and those closest to me was truth. Early this morning, before hitting this e-mail, I was thinking back on a couple things that had a definite change in my heart and mind. Truly forming an attitude of gratitude, coincidentally one of the first books to begin a change in me and the methods I learned in the book "The Papa Prayer" by Crabb.

I haven't glanced at the second mentioned book in quite awhile but basically to me "PAPA" prayer time stays the same each day.

P-Present myself before the Lord...the Lord's Prayer helps me on days and nights when I am drained.

A-Acknowledge all the blessing and praise I can muster to Him. Telling God I know He is God...all-knowing...all-present!!!!

P-Praise...more lists of all I have to be thankful for. Sometimes I drift off to sleep after this part, I have come to realize that this is all that is asked of me.

A-Ask...ask for forgiveness, ask for others, then ask for myself.

Now this is pretty much my shortened and altered version of the book but isn't that what spending time with God is all about, making it personal. Taking seeds and planting.

Well this was a little seed of me today.
I once hated much, found joy in so little.
Depression is curable.
Never dismiss something that easily gives offense one day because someday it will make the most sense of all!


WooHooo!!!! The sun is out! The child is fed...I was up early and hit the store before anyone was awake...bought a couple pastries and fruit. She is happy!
Needs being met...not falling behind...got too much to be thankful for to dwell on our current financial situation!

Update:
hhh... I pulled "The Papa Prayer" by Larry Crabb from my shelf and I have altered his version quite.

Present
Attend
Purge
Approach

I must read this book again this summer...I have a feeling I will find something new!

Thankful for hard work!
Thankful for some unexpected bucks in our pocket today!