What my eyes did not see!

Friday night I attempted to jazz up my blog with a download from another site.

Today, Sunday, I am choosing to leave it for now.
Last night, after a nerve-wrenching game on TV with Penn State vs Ohio State, I made a mental decision I would arise extra early, attend early church and visit my father in a nursing home. At 6:00 I popped awake but chose to catch a few more winks...when I got up it was too late. Joe was already outside closing our above ground pool, which was a gift from my father many years ago. I was sick inside. Our weekends have been full or the weather hasn't cooperated...today was the day, because there is going to be a change in the weather tomorrow.

Joe needed me. Four hours later he openly thanked me for my help and it settled so sweetly with me that my heart was full of love.

I opened this blog but was still saddened by what I didn't do today, something I wanted so much to happen last night.

I googled Mark 8...read all of Chapter 8 & 9, and took it to the bathtub to soak and ponder on.

Much happened in those two chapters. Feeding thousands, addressing more Pharisees, healings, Peter's confession of Christ, Jesus predicts his death, the Transfiguration...this is too much to comment on from my limited skill.

Yet the quote that stirred me to came back here was Mark 8:21
"He said to them, "Do you still not understand?"

I could swallow myself up in pity or I could press on trusting God.

Each day is filled with the temptation of "couldas" and "shouldas".
I learned that years ago when I was still in therapy.

Being one of sound faith and joyful to boot, doesn't have to be a strain.
Why was I making it so?

Sitting in the bathtub, naked and talking to God may sound weird, but think of all the places millions have had to call out His name and the various circumstances they have been in.

Now I am relaxed. Joe is resting. The girls are shopping.
I didn't make it to church again or visit my father.

I'm not proud of that, but I refuse to allow it to rob my joy!

This isn't working!

Okay the theme of Lysa TerKeurst's blog today from Proverbs 31 Ministry was blogging.

This is definitely one experiment gone wrong.

There are trees growing behind my daughter.

I can't seem to figure out how to enlarge my text area.

I lost a link...anyways it was a funny man giggling at The Comedy Barn in Pigeon Forge, Tennessee. It's on youtube somewhere, yet when you clink links there you never know what will be in the sidebars of other videos, so it is just as well be lost.

I am missing family movie night in the next room, Indiana Jones.

Yet I find this situation somewhat goofy enough to post.

To make matters worse, I just got hushed when I asked how to spell "youtube". I had it Utube...I am such a dork!

Giving it up...for now.

Love and blessings!!!!!


Carol

"I'm glad your my Mom."

That is what my youngest daughter said to me as I was driving her to her first Homecoming dance as a freshman and representative of our school's Student Council.

I actually did this.....


and the finished result...mind you we only bought this dress two weeks ago and the shoes four hours before the event. For once having size 10 feet came in handy because they were the only shoes that fit and they were "good"!





Now to what really gives me motivation sometimes...

Deut 4:9

"Only take heed to thyself, and keep thy soul diligently, lest thou forget the things which thine eyes have seen, and lest they depart from thy heart all the days of thy life: but teach them thy sons, and thy sons' sons"


I did not give heed to anything Saturday night but to create a balance in my daughter's life that would bring her confidence and reassurance in her natural beauty. She had a wonderful time!

Sunday we enjoyed, my two girls and I, a little talk of why I do the things I do.

I don't want them to make the mistakes I made.
(That's why I check her grades on the computer.)

That's why I try to go the extra mile and blab on and on about the things that hurt me when I was younger.

We also talked of the mistakes I have made, and their right to comment and store up what they would do differently when they have children of their own.
(my eldest reminded me of her 9th grade hairdo that was not so "hip", "funky" or whatever they say now-it was more akin to a Texas beauty pagent...hey...I admitted I make mistakes)

My girls know I smoked pot, went to my first bar at the age of 15, was a binge eater then a starvation fool. When my mother died my senior year of cancer, I hurt so deeply inside I began hurting myself. I once told someone that in MY case, I do not regret the pain I went through and the mistakes I made because I turned something wrong from my early life into something wonderful!


Thanking God we reconnected these past several years before it was too late!

Thank you Jesus...because of you I really was made anew!
(yet a little of the daring comes out from time to time-Thank you Holy Spirit!!!!)

I do not mask much any more...I don't take chances any more!

God gave me four wonderful things to die for:
two beautiful young women,
a loving husband,

and life eternal!!!!!!!

Quickie blog

SLEEP, GLORIOUS SLEEP!

Oh, how I didn't want to get out of bed this morning. One hour ago I was allowing the wrong thoughts to spread through my brain. I was angry inside about having to do more running tonight, picking up...dropping off. My youngest is having her friend stay over tonight so the girls can get ready and catch a bus for a field trip tomorrow at 5 AM. More running. Problem is her girlfriend isn't coming until she arrives tonight from her v-ball game around 10:30. Then there is doing the tidying up, running the vacuum, quick dust job, picking up laundry, etc, etc.

So who was I angry at...I was blaming dear ole Joe. Since he got back from storm duty...he has been catching up on sleep. Thank you Father I didn't repeat aloud any of those thoughts prodding me of how unfair I felt Joe was treating me. For a few minutes I didn't care he had worked numerous 16 hour days in a row. I was only thinking about myself.

That's what the devil wants.


Last week I was proud of what I accomplished...this morning I was looking for excuses, and seeking someone to blame.

That's what the devil wanted...it's not what he got an hour later!!!


Thanks be to God!!!!

Now I need to get my bum moving and get ready for work. :)

Taking it easy!

Currently I am all alone.

Husband is working. After I got home this morning the girls went to visit grandparents, they live next door! What a blessing!

I found something I had tucked away back in February 2007. I scanned my bookshelf and realized a little slip of paper sticking out of one of the copies of "The New Believers Bible". It was a list.

Here goes...

Things I Know

1. God's Grace
a. is sufficient

2. It's all in the Cross
a. love and understanding
b. forgiveness
c. fellowship
d. Kingdom
e. More to come... hhhhh I wonder what was going on there?

3. Destiny and Signs

4. Supernatural Exists

5. Prayer works, intervention works

6. Can conquer through Christ

7. No man can be against me when God is with me

8. I can trust God

9. I can trust Jesus

10. I can trust the Holy Spirit
*holds my tongue

11. Love your enemies

12. Spread the Gospel

13. Tithe

14. Waiting is good

15. Distractions are many, but God is Great, He is God

16. practice makes perfect

17. the Word heals!

Then I flipped over the page and saw...

Things I Don't Understand

1. What are you actually doing up there, God?
a. Who are you positioning?
b. What is my role as your servant?

2. I know I'm on the right track, but am I doing it right?

3. Should I run the race a little faster?

This led me to 1 Cor. 2:9

"That is what the Scriptures mean when they say,
'No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined
what God has prepared for those who love him".

It is very difficult to lead myself into a full body of teaching on the fullness of God's love. I guess that is why I wish to go to higher education. I would love any suggestions. I am not conveniently located near college level classes. Earlier this year I almost entered a scholarship contest to Regent University but gave up.

My thoughts on where to go often imagine the possibilities of helping others with mental illness, counseling, writing.

Love and Blessing to all!

What I learned today!

I learned my daughter received the full time teaching position she was hoping for.

I learned my youngest daughter's standardized test scores from last year. She did very well on two thirds of her scores but like her mother she needs to further her writing skills. :)

I learned I could handle a grandchild with a disability. I don't want to be the "A" grandparent but share a cooperative love. By the way this topic has come up a few times lately because my daughter who has no social life including a young man, marvels at the fact I was already married two years at age 22 and was only two years away from pregnancy with her. Thankful she is VERY picky!


I learned I could send out inquiries to colleges without fear at age 46.

I learned I could share past pain about the mental anguish I endured and do it without shame or doubt.


It was a great day!

On the lighter side

Whatever was working against me has departed for the time being.

So...lately our little foursome has been leaning on humor.

Today we wondered if our pup thought the neighbors brought the "big guns" out when she got outside and saw two Amish horses in their backyard. She's been a stubborn pup and I hate having to cross the line and scoop. Today she was on her best behavior! Need a new roof fast...call the Amish in these parts! Actually, I love seeing them...they bought my old childhood homestead!


I ate something disgusting(according to my girls)...since the first toasted cheese sandwich burned looking at something my daughter had up on the web, I doused it with Texas hot dog sauce. Yummy! What can I say...I like a little hot dog with my sauce!



Since we had the talk a few days ago if my husband and I would be the A grandparents or B grandparents, my eldest decided we needed to be the A grandparents. So when the day comes...we will greet the in-laws with hugs and kisses...and announce "game on"! Just kidding, but fun to joke about.


Our car was illegally entered into Saturday night...I always complain that my hubby locks it every time he steps out of it, even in daylight. Well I forgot to lock it and yet all they stole was an eight pack of G2 sports drink! Go figure. Humbled and thankful! Not humorous at first but the more we talked about it the stranger it all seemed. It became strangely humorous.


I wish I saw the look on my niece's face Tuesday morning when my eldest pulled in behind them at another school to interview for a "full-time" teaching position. She could actually be her teacher to replace a full-time sub! Let the texting begin! She is texting her nonstop to see if she has heard anything definite. Happy and proud of all her co-workers now who fully understand why she would depart for a full time position.
:( Doubting if some of mine are so happy. I don't care!

Small town life...whatcha gonna do?

Find humor in the weirdest and strangest things!

That's how it has been flying lately.