Tuesday, September 9, 2008

I AM actually happy about this!

Everyone hates tests, including me.

These past two weeks have included such a vast array of mental, physical and emotional tests.

It's been like the SAT of learning to trust God in a way I have never seen before.

I have had to say no to certain individuals.

I have had to learn not to complain. Actually I can't even force myself to complain.

Yet, I had to complain tonight to someone to help ease tension others were feeling.

I have had to sit quietly and let others voice their opinions, their trials, and their triumphs.

I have had to speak up on decisions we have made about my youngest daughter and why we have chosen the course we have.

I have realized the Holy Spirit is really working on my behalf by keeping my tongue quiet on so many obstacles that have been placed before me. Then I felt Spirit led another time to speak up.

I am not joyful, happy about everything I have said and done, but I fear God more.

I am going to go to bed tonight knowing that He is with our family.

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