Quickie blog

SLEEP, GLORIOUS SLEEP!

Oh, how I didn't want to get out of bed this morning. One hour ago I was allowing the wrong thoughts to spread through my brain. I was angry inside about having to do more running tonight, picking up...dropping off. My youngest is having her friend stay over tonight so the girls can get ready and catch a bus for a field trip tomorrow at 5 AM. More running. Problem is her girlfriend isn't coming until she arrives tonight from her v-ball game around 10:30. Then there is doing the tidying up, running the vacuum, quick dust job, picking up laundry, etc, etc.

So who was I angry at...I was blaming dear ole Joe. Since he got back from storm duty...he has been catching up on sleep. Thank you Father I didn't repeat aloud any of those thoughts prodding me of how unfair I felt Joe was treating me. For a few minutes I didn't care he had worked numerous 16 hour days in a row. I was only thinking about myself.

That's what the devil wants.


Last week I was proud of what I accomplished...this morning I was looking for excuses, and seeking someone to blame.

That's what the devil wanted...it's not what he got an hour later!!!


Thanks be to God!!!!

Now I need to get my bum moving and get ready for work. :)

Taking it easy!

Currently I am all alone.

Husband is working. After I got home this morning the girls went to visit grandparents, they live next door! What a blessing!

I found something I had tucked away back in February 2007. I scanned my bookshelf and realized a little slip of paper sticking out of one of the copies of "The New Believers Bible". It was a list.

Here goes...

Things I Know

1. God's Grace
a. is sufficient

2. It's all in the Cross
a. love and understanding
b. forgiveness
c. fellowship
d. Kingdom
e. More to come... hhhhh I wonder what was going on there?

3. Destiny and Signs

4. Supernatural Exists

5. Prayer works, intervention works

6. Can conquer through Christ

7. No man can be against me when God is with me

8. I can trust God

9. I can trust Jesus

10. I can trust the Holy Spirit
*holds my tongue

11. Love your enemies

12. Spread the Gospel

13. Tithe

14. Waiting is good

15. Distractions are many, but God is Great, He is God

16. practice makes perfect

17. the Word heals!

Then I flipped over the page and saw...

Things I Don't Understand

1. What are you actually doing up there, God?
a. Who are you positioning?
b. What is my role as your servant?

2. I know I'm on the right track, but am I doing it right?

3. Should I run the race a little faster?

This led me to 1 Cor. 2:9

"That is what the Scriptures mean when they say,
'No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined
what God has prepared for those who love him".

It is very difficult to lead myself into a full body of teaching on the fullness of God's love. I guess that is why I wish to go to higher education. I would love any suggestions. I am not conveniently located near college level classes. Earlier this year I almost entered a scholarship contest to Regent University but gave up.

My thoughts on where to go often imagine the possibilities of helping others with mental illness, counseling, writing.

Love and Blessing to all!

What I learned today!

I learned my daughter received the full time teaching position she was hoping for.

I learned my youngest daughter's standardized test scores from last year. She did very well on two thirds of her scores but like her mother she needs to further her writing skills. :)

I learned I could handle a grandchild with a disability. I don't want to be the "A" grandparent but share a cooperative love. By the way this topic has come up a few times lately because my daughter who has no social life including a young man, marvels at the fact I was already married two years at age 22 and was only two years away from pregnancy with her. Thankful she is VERY picky!


I learned I could send out inquiries to colleges without fear at age 46.

I learned I could share past pain about the mental anguish I endured and do it without shame or doubt.


It was a great day!

On the lighter side

Whatever was working against me has departed for the time being.

So...lately our little foursome has been leaning on humor.

Today we wondered if our pup thought the neighbors brought the "big guns" out when she got outside and saw two Amish horses in their backyard. She's been a stubborn pup and I hate having to cross the line and scoop. Today she was on her best behavior! Need a new roof fast...call the Amish in these parts! Actually, I love seeing them...they bought my old childhood homestead!


I ate something disgusting(according to my girls)...since the first toasted cheese sandwich burned looking at something my daughter had up on the web, I doused it with Texas hot dog sauce. Yummy! What can I say...I like a little hot dog with my sauce!



Since we had the talk a few days ago if my husband and I would be the A grandparents or B grandparents, my eldest decided we needed to be the A grandparents. So when the day comes...we will greet the in-laws with hugs and kisses...and announce "game on"! Just kidding, but fun to joke about.


Our car was illegally entered into Saturday night...I always complain that my hubby locks it every time he steps out of it, even in daylight. Well I forgot to lock it and yet all they stole was an eight pack of G2 sports drink! Go figure. Humbled and thankful! Not humorous at first but the more we talked about it the stranger it all seemed. It became strangely humorous.


I wish I saw the look on my niece's face Tuesday morning when my eldest pulled in behind them at another school to interview for a "full-time" teaching position. She could actually be her teacher to replace a full-time sub! Let the texting begin! She is texting her nonstop to see if she has heard anything definite. Happy and proud of all her co-workers now who fully understand why she would depart for a full time position.
:( Doubting if some of mine are so happy. I don't care!

Small town life...whatcha gonna do?

Find humor in the weirdest and strangest things!

That's how it has been flying lately.

Goals

Since my daughter was given an assignment by her coach to find a specific weakness to focus on, she handed in her desire to learn to jump. Funny thing is, at age 14 she is already 5'10" but she admits being a tall child made her self conscious on the playing court. She couldn't really express that emotion into words when I asked why. She really never leaves the ground, except an inch or two. I love to watch the girls on her team who are of shorter stature leap. They seem so fearless.
Juli already has an edge in height but no one in her growth in athletics has asked her to leap higher, until now.

Now to where I stand in growth. Right now no one is asking me to leap higher. If anything I feel a bit stagnate in my spiritual growth in the workplace. Lately when I have tried to write, I feel helpless, unschooled in my ability to express God's written word. I feel God's teachings and guidance, I express it to others in my actions but I am at a point in my life where I want to become more articulate in the matters and teachings of the Bible. I'm self conscious, afraid to offend anyone and yet, I too, tired of not jumping higher.

So my goal, early in it's development, is to get an education. I am going to give this desire to God. I am going to place a note in my Bible to find the most appropriate distance learning venue suited to my needs.

That's where I am at today.

It's in writing.
It's in His hands, all I have to do is a my homework and pray!
Each day looks a little brighter financially!

Thank you Father!

The mess of it all!

Instead of needing "you know your a redneck joke", I need a "you know your house is a mess when"....


your daughter walks into the kitchen and asks "is that vomit or a leaf".

She didn't yell it, but nonchalantly asked what was before her eyes before stepping into the kitchen. Thankfully things are not so destitute to think it was of human nature but earlier in the evening one of our cats had a little case of the "yuckies".
I had to laugh. It was a leaf, but we all got a good chuckle of how in some homes no one would even think to take an icky kitty deposit as something that could be as ordinary as a tiny shriveled maple leaf.

Late last night, after returning home from another evening away and hurried schedule,
I scanned this mess of a place. When school started three weeks ago, I had a schedule change which meant early rising at 5:00.
I am not a morning person by nature!!!!

Then with volleyball games, dance, errands and much needed downtime...the only chore I have been able to keep up on is laundry.

We have clean clothes...but my home has suffered a visible physical pain.

Now I am even a tad too whipped to find a suitable bible verse...but the good news is that even when you can't come up with a suitable quote you can stand firm on the lessons learned.

Eventually life will slow down.
Eventually I will have more energy.
Eventually I'll have a moment to sit back and relish a clean home.

Next week's schedule is much, much less demanding.

Amazing how some weeks just hit you hard!

I did get me a potted mum, and some candy corn to boot!

PS: If you came here by accident...check out Proverbs 31 blogs! They really do help salvage bad days. Thanks to all!

and...my little girl cried last night...she loves her sports..loves it, loves it, loves it...we don't push her into traveling teams or bunches of camps but last night I checked her grades on the computer here at home and asked "what's up with this 65%?" I was heading to bed around 11:30..."Mom"...she felt bad about ONE stinkin' science grade over all the other A's...why did I even mention it??? I actually didn't give it much thought after that. She did. I could of strangled myself...my "bad Mom" moment of the week!


WOOHOOO!!!!! My daughter just walked in after practice...guess what...her teacher typed her score in wrong...she was in the 90% range instead!!!!


Not gonna even attempt to comment on this one either!!! Grades are not that important to lose sleep on I always tell her, but thanking God she mentioned it to her teacher today!

I AM actually happy about this!

Everyone hates tests, including me.

These past two weeks have included such a vast array of mental, physical and emotional tests.

It's been like the SAT of learning to trust God in a way I have never seen before.

I have had to say no to certain individuals.

I have had to learn not to complain. Actually I can't even force myself to complain.

Yet, I had to complain tonight to someone to help ease tension others were feeling.

I have had to sit quietly and let others voice their opinions, their trials, and their triumphs.

I have had to speak up on decisions we have made about my youngest daughter and why we have chosen the course we have.

I have realized the Holy Spirit is really working on my behalf by keeping my tongue quiet on so many obstacles that have been placed before me. Then I felt Spirit led another time to speak up.

I am not joyful, happy about everything I have said and done, but I fear God more.

I am going to go to bed tonight knowing that He is with our family.

Labor Day

I woke up a rather foolish woman today. It was late...10:45...husband really did the right thing by letting me get needed rest. But I was torn, feeling irresponsible and lazy. Got my coffee, settled down to reading e-mails and put on my sneakers. Then things looked better, but the plans I had made last night to get an early start were haunting me. By 1:00, I had two loads of laundry done, a bed changed and still feeling some discontent. What's a girl to do...I head outside and mow the lawn.

I once commented that I use the random shuffling of songs on my i-pod to propel my discontent to better thinking, sweating it out. First song that came up..."Another Loser Anthem" by Good Charlotte.
Oh, that's not Christian.
Col. 3:2 "Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth"

This is my crazy mind. What I see.

Next...some thing I needed to hear...Liz Phair, "Extraordinary".
I needed to hear...to think...to say it to myself...I am extraordinary!
Of course, every time I hear the rest of the refrain I chuckle...mentally...not out loud.

I mow along...various songs come and go. I think about New Orleans, my own trials, places where I haven't let go of past resentments and hurts.

Then a song that heals perfectly a wandering mind such as mine, "Ain't No Mountain High Enough"

Get that song.
Listen to every word.
Feel, know, hear... that which is truth. Call on Him. He listens.
He answers. He moves mountains. He comforts. He is in our lows and our highs.
God observes our trials, knows our weaknesses, saves the lost.

Praise be His name.

Now to tackle more laundry, back to work tomorrow.

PS...The last song on the shuffle, putting away the wheel barrel...U2's, "A Beautiful Day"